Devotional Thoughts · real life with Valerie · thoughts-from-my-heart

I Blew It

Prov. 30:32 If thou hast done foolishly in lifting up thyself, or if thou hast thought evil, lay thine hand upon thy mouth.

In obedience to scripture, I need you to do something for me. Picture my face (feel free to look to your left at the top of the page, my picture is there with my husband – got it? Okay.), so picture my face, with my hand over my mouth. Yep. That’s me today. I have done foolishly, and my hand is over my mouth, hiding a blushing face. I’m so mad at myself! I knew better, yet I blew it, plain and simple.

I like keeping things real here, so I figure I’ll just share my heart. Recently, in a facebook debate over a spiritual issue, I got carried away. I popped off and now I regret it. It all started out so innocently, with no ill intent, but soon it escalated and got out of hand. As I reflect on it now, I can see how my “good intentions” were being used of the Devil. I got so focused on this issue, that I failed to serve my family and my Lord as I should. I became so distracted, so focused on this one thing (which is not even a doctrinal issue), that I couldn’t even get what the Lord had for me from His Word.

I haven’t changed my position, because I have the Bible to back me up, but I do wish I had just stayed out of it. Even though I’m sad about getting carried away, I am thankful that the Holy Spirit convicted me about it – it’s just another confirmation that I’m His child. I’m also grateful that I have read enough scripture to have it immediately flood my heart, reminding me of how I’ve failed. Still, I hate that I have let my Lord down. He did not receive any glory from that silly debate.

Some verses that the Lord brought to mind are these:

Prov. 10:19 In the multitude of words, there wanteth not sin: but he that refraineth his lips is wise. 
{My words a-boun-ded – that’s not a good thing!}


Rom. 14:1 Him that is weak in the faith receive ye, but not to doubtful disputations.
{From the beginning, it was doubtful that these people would change their minds – why did I bother?}


1 Cor. 10:31 Whether therefore ye eat, or drink, or whatsoever ye do, do all to the glory of God.
{As I said before, this did not bring glory to the Lord.}

I’m grateful the I have this verse as well: 1 John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.


I’ve confessed it to the Lord, and now to you. I am thankful for His forgiveness, but my goal is to be more Christlike and not disappoint my Savior. Yes, I have a long way to go.

Proverbs 24:16 For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again…


I’m so disappointed in me, and I’m so discouraged, but with God’s help, I am going to get up and keep going.

Thankful for His grace,

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One thought on “I Blew It

  1. Oh, these are the posts of the heart that really make all the difference. Your humbled heart is precious and I'm sure that the Lord can use the situation for His good 🙂 You may not see it now or ever, but I've learned that His plans and the ways He works are so wonderful.

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