Today is my precious Lauren’s 11th birthday! Where did the time go? She is the one who made me a mother. I had no idea how to nurse a baby or care for a newborn when she came along. I didn’t know what to do when she cried in her car seat while we drove. I had to learn everything when I had Lauren! I have heard some women say that “mothering” came naturally to them. I can honestly say it didn’t for me. I have made, and still make, so many mistakes! I marvel that the Lord gave me one child, much less five! Nothing has driven me to my knees more than motherhood. I’m thankful that I know the One who knows how to help me.
After Lauren was born, I spiraled downward emotionally. I suffered with PPD and, were it not for the grace of God and a strong husband, I would not be here today to celebrate her birthday with her. When I think of that, I shudder. The Lord was watching over me – over all of us – to see us through those terrible early days of Lauren’s life. I am thankful that she has no memory of it. He has healed me completely and given me hope; for that I praise Him.
I have enjoyed watching my sweet Lauren take her first steps, learn to talk, ride a bike, play at the park, and learn to read and write. I have not missed a thing. I love having her home with me. She cares about the souls of others and wants everyone to go to Heaven. She wants to know what the Bible says, and she tries to live it. She is a hard worker. She loves to read and play outside. She is joy to our lives!
She is fast approaching womanhood, and that gives me mixed emotions. I want her to stay little, and I want her to grow up and see what God has for her as an adult! I can only have it one way, though. God’s plan is for us to grow and change, but I’m leaning on Him each and every step of the way! While I am a bit melancholy to see her growing up, I choose not to give in to sadness today! I am rejoicing that I have a beautiful 11 year old daughter, and I am so thankful to be her mother.
Here’s a photo taken of her last Tuesday, when we took her bowling for her birthday. We are having her cake today, so I’ll post more pictures of her birthday celebration later. :]
Making sweet memories,