Today, as I awoke to another day of work, I stumbled in to my “spot”. And as usual, I have to steel myself against the interruptions that come. This is “my quiet time” and I must guard it, as I know if I don’t seek God early, I’ll not get to see Him at all! My days are so busy.
I began my prayer time, really kind of thinking “When will He answer all of these needs? And, is it worth this time and effort?” Then I realized God knew my thoughts, so I just said it out loud to Him. “Lord, are you there? It feels like you’re not listening so why am I working so hard to get here in my spot if you’re not going to help me in a way where I can really see that it’s You?” Then, I knew He was there, He’s always there. It was just my focus that was off. But still, when will I see the miracles that I am praying for? I needed personal affirmation that He was there, and that He loved me. Today. So, I told Him that.
I went on to my Bible time and the Lord showed up.(Thank you Lord!)
Hebrews 13:5-6
5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.
I got the message. He was there, and I had to wait on Him for His timing to see my miracles take place. These verses spoke to me loud and clear: “Hey, Valerie, be content! I am here, and I will never leave!”
So, just because I’m fighting my flesh, or failing Him in some way, and He feels like He’s a million miles away, He isn’t. He’s right beside me, and He’s working – at His pace, not mine! I’m so glad that knowing the Lord doesn’t depend on my feelings, because they change daily, or hourly! :o) It depends on His faithfulness, which never waivers, at all!