A few weeks ago, a Christian friend told me how disappointed my dad would be in me because I believe in God’s sovereign grace. Any regular reader of my blog knows that my dad and I were very close, therefore, these words were particularly cutting. I’ve thought and thought about them. Then I asked myself, what about my life would disappoint Dad any more than the monumental task of raising a stubborn, rebellious, selfish child? Would he be disappointed that I am striving to serve the Lord and study His Word? Would he be disappointed that I try to witness to others of Christ’s saving grace? Perhaps the fact that I stay at home with my children and teach them the Gospel would disappoint him? Would he be saddened that I write about the Bible, my family and the glorious Gospel? These are my reasons for living; my goals for life! I’m nowhere near perfect at any of it, but I’m trying.
So, would Dad be disappointed in me? I do not know. I do know this: if my dad were alive, I would at times disappoint him just like I did so often in my childhood. I am following the Bible, and my husband, so my deceased father’s, or any living person’s, opinion of my life is of little concern. As that famous hymn says, “Turn your eyes upon Jesus, look full in His wonderful face, and the things of earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace.” That is my aim, to keep my heart fixed upon His Word until someday I see Him face to face.
“Notwithstanding the Lord stood with me, and strengthened me;…” 2 Timothy 4:17